Reactions to things that seem normal to everyone around your or used to seem normal to even YOU now feel stressful. A room of people leaves a sense of overwhelm. Eyes on the door, is there a way for me to get out of this place if there is an emergency.
Church is dark and there are so many side doors, someone could come in and hurt the people in the sanctuary. What to do in that situation? Play it over in your mind, make a plan, stay and help or run for your kids in the next room? Try to look normal because everyone else is there enjoying themselves with no fear of their surroundings and the "what if's?"
It's very much me. I have PTSD.
I was never a soldier. But still I have this anxiety forever.
My heart goes out to the soldiers who have volunteered to protect all of us and in the process knew they could be hurt or killed. My heart goes out to the soldiers who return home after seeing an entirely different world than the one they knew before they left and some how are supposed to live a "normal life" for their country and their families.
If you don't have it, there is really no way you can understand it.
Educate yourself on it today. It is very real and very widespread. I don't tell my friends that I have it, well perhaps if any of them read my blog, they now know. But especially since I am not a soldier I feel awkward about it, like my trauma couldn't compare to someone else's, even though the Dr. told me this is something I have. Trauma is real. Trauma happens everyday. Trauma is Trauma.
Pray for our men and women in the military, not only when they are away, but also when they return.
And be patient with people that cannot step out on every ledge you can, You don't know their whole story.